Saturday, January 23, 2010

Patiently unpatient

"I don't know what I'm doing."

That comment was probably the most epic of the week. A friend of mine, who just got out of a relationship of 13 years, said this to me at dinner the other night. I could tell she felt alone and lost. All I could tell her was that there was a light at the end of the tunnel, even if she didn't see it right now.

But all I could think was, "I don't either."

I spent so much of my life with a plan for my future. I don't have a plan right now. I've accomplished all of my earlier goals and don't know what to shoot for right now. I've been in this holding pattern for almost 2 years.

I don't know what I'm doing either.

Right now, I'm just living. And I enjoy it, don't get me wrong. But I need something. I need a goal. I need a challenge. I feel like it's just going to come to me at some point, maybe fall from the sky and land with a thud in my lap.... but I've been waiting for almost 2 years.

When will I know what the next chapter of my life will be?